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Friday, November 29th, 2002

Time:5:53 pm.
OMG I never write in this journal. An' I was lookin through my friend list an' never knew I had Alex and whoever heavenlykiss is on my list =/
so confused now about well how I met ya'll oh well blahhh. Going back to my other lj
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Saturday, September 14th, 2002

Subject:Hey Hey
Time:11:02 pm.
I dont know if im going to start writing back in this journal or not.. im not for sure, I probably will thats if someone comes along teehee! but anyway non of u guys actually comment on this journal or ever did so I don't know
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Friday, June 28th, 2002

Time:6:09 pm.
I got a new journal
wicked__drugg

add me if you want to `,=c]
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Time:4:23 pm.
Damn..
The hard times are coming.. Im scared ..
I thought I was so inlove.. But actually it all turn down on me that I was with my goodfriend, an' I screwed up.. I've done so wrong, I don't know what to do or what to think.. I do love you, But I get so jealous an' hurt to hear you say the stuff you do.. I don't even know why we got together.. this is hard to say but I think I made the mistake to even let this go on.. look what has happen I lost you as a loved one an' most of all as my special friend.. Seems I have no one to turn to anymore.. but I do know that I have one good true friend right now an' that is Rudy.. He is helping me pull through alot..
.. I want to die.. I can't stand it anymore seems I try an' try, maybe even try to hard an' I fuck everything up.. I want to be perfect for you I want you to want me I want to be an' "us" but look it'll never happen because I messed up so much an' im sorry please listen to me .. There are so many things im feeling that I need to get out an' when I go to turn to you.. I feel your not there ur just thick air.. An' I hate it because I love you.. with all of my heart an' I dont want to lose faith in one another..
seems you just walk away an' I fall down.. I want to tell you I love you over an' over let you hear me I want to give you so much but I cant.. Seems im a challenge.. But I do know one thing an' that is.. I was bliss to even have you, very much.
I feel im minimizing.. its very difficult, I feel unloved, devastated. But I know it was necessary just the simple fact I don't know how to handle it.. All I do is sit cry an' mope.. I hate it so much I do appreciate the fact you told me immediately then at least later on. I can't get angry or change what has happen.. but I do hope ur able to keep alive a nice feeling for me.. an' I genuinely wish you well even though im extremely upset than ever but thats natural.
" To love at all is to be vulnerable"
I don't think im selfish one bit at all..
maybe little irritable an conceited an jealous .. But understand where I'm coming from.. Im still in love with you an' I dare would not go around tellin' other people oh ur hot etc so on.. Thats because I have respect for you very much deep down.. An' I think you didnt want to have a relationship just like you said you thought it'd fill in the emptyness.. Im sorry I even tried.. I think you still have feelin's an' like that one but hey whatever makes you happy.. I know im not pretty an' hot but I do know I carry myself good an' I have a great sence of humor an im just a plain ol' girl an' even though im not the best thats all I have .. I still want to be friends I still want to talk about things an' yes we do need to talk about this situation this problem.. because all this is going to do is bring us down an' either of us need it at the time.. Im here for you like I said once before, I know its hard to see right now after what has happen between us but believe me if we stop talkin' for the rest of our lives im always going to be here when you need someone
I feel in way that you led me to the point where you don't want to share things with me but it hurts to feel that way.. I am patience an' im here to listen I know I couldnt tell you this because its easier for me to right down then to speak it .. but im turnin' over to you an' my attention is all based upon you `,=c]
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Time:12:07 am.
im scared ..
im alone ..
I want to go somewhere far far away
where I can't mix another day ..
I want to be loved..
An' I want to be kissed..
most of all, I want your special gift ..
why do we fight?
why do we hate?
why cant you an'I just get along?
its because of hate ..
our friendship is over ..
because we went for eachother ..
look what it brought us too ..
an' endless cross road ..
that was suppose to be faith ..
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Thursday, June 27th, 2002

Time:7:03 pm.
nobody writes in my journal .... `,=c[
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Tuesday, June 25th, 2002

Time:9:41 pm.
watchin sad movie
AND I think im going
TO CRY!! `,=c[
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Time:12:38 pm.







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Time:10:10 am.
The heavens opened the gate,
god gave me faith ..
I shall never escape ..

I'm not very strong ..
but i'm still holdin' on ..
until the day comes I won't be gone

I'll be with my loved ones..
who I cherish the most ..
who keeps me happy before I expose ..

I have one soul ..
an' that is J ..
who I love the most ..

he keeps me alive ..
he keeps me inside ..
most of all he keeps me standin' ..

deep down he's
in the hole ..
not for to long, he'll start to grow ..

let me be the one ..
to heal your growth ..
to see you bloom like a wicked rose ..

hold my hand,
an' never let go
whisper my name,
but.. very slow

passion is startin' to glow ..
open wide ..
because now ..
you an' I
are in paradise
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Subject:wake up wake up!!
Time:8:34 am.
shana loves J :: shana loves J :: J loves shana :: J loves shana =]
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Sunday, June 23rd, 2002

Time:4:10 am.
Mood: accomplished.
Adema - The way you like it
Adema - Trust
Adema - Life sucks
Adema - Pain inside
Adema - Struggle
Alice Cooper - Poison
Aaliyah - ft sisqo mya vs Aaliyah
Aaliyah - One In Million
Aaliyah - age ain't nothin' but a number
Aaliyah - Rock the boat
Aaliyah - U got nerve
Aaliyah - I care for you
Aaliyah - Are you that somebody
Angie Martinez - If I can go
Ashanti - Foolish
Ashanti ft Brandy & Da Brat - If you dont know me
Big Pun - Puerto Rico
Big Pun - Its so hard
Big Pun ft Ashanti - How we roll
Big Pun - laughin' at you
Bon Jovi - Its my life
Bon Jovi - Never say goodbye
Bon Jovi - I'd die for you
Bon Jovi - social disease
Bon Jovi - Let it rock
Bon jovi - Bad medicine
Beatles - Twist & shout
Beatles - blackbird
black sabath - Crazytrain
black sabath - Ironman
black sabath - The wizard
black sabath - she's gone
black sabath - War Pigs
buck cherry - Cocaine
buck cherry - Lit Up
buck cherry -alone
buck cherry - without you
cypress hill - When shit goes down
cypress hill - How could I kill A man
cypress hill - trouble
cypress hill - I wanna get high
cypress hill - Illusions
cypress hill - Lowrider
cypress hill - rock superstar
cypress hill - another victory
cam'ron ft juelz - we got ta money
cam'ron - Oh Boy
cam'ron - dead or alive
cam'ron - leave me alone
Creed - Bullets
Creed - My Sacifice
Creed - Higher
Creed - One last breath
Creed - Torn
Creed - My own prison
default - wasting my time
default - deny
default - faded
default - sick & tired
disturbed - down with the sickness
disturbed - stupify
disturbed - shout
disturbed - want
disturbed - fear
disturbed - voices
disturbed - numb
drowning pool - bodies
drowning pool - pity
drowning pool - told you so
drowning pool - I am
drowning pool - tear away
D12 ft eminem - fight music
DJ kool - let me clear my throat
DMX - We right here
DMX - Party It Up
DMX - what you really want
DMX - Aint no sunshine
Eve - Love is blind
Eve - every freakin' night
Eve - Whos that girl
Eminem - as the world turns
Eminem - my dads gone crazy
Eminem - Fuck da clowns
Eminem - Still dont give a fuck
Eminem - see you in hell
Eminem - without me
faith evans - never going to let you go
faith evans - I love you
faith evans - can't believe
faith evans - you gets no love
faith evans - so emotional
Fat Joe ft Charli Baltimore - Walk on by
Fat Joe ft Ashanti - whats luv?
Fat Joe - we thuggin'
Fat Joe - still real
Fat Joe ft vita - 7days
Good Charlotte - Change
Good Charlotte - little things
Good Charlotte - I heard you
Good Charlotte - seasons
Good Charlotte - Complicated
Guns N Roses - Sweet Child Of Mine
Guns N Roses - stairway to heaven
Guns N Roses - dont cry
Guns N Roses - november rain
Hootie & the blowfish - Hold My Hand
Hootie & the blowfish - Let her cry
Hootie & the blowfish - only want to be with you
Hootie & the blowfish - I go blind
ICP - Elmo pimps hoes
ICP - Assassins
ICP - Lets go all the way
ICP - COTTON CANDY
ICP - slim anus ( eminem )
ICP - Spin The Bottle
Ja Rule ft vita/Charli Baltimore/Ashanti - Down 4 you
Ja Rule ft Lil mo - I cry
Ja Rule ft Charli Baltimore - Down ass bitch
Ja Rule ft Mary J. Blige - Rainy Dayz
Ja Rule - furious
Ja Rule - so much pain
Jagged Edge ft Blaque - You can always go
Jagged Edge - Lets get married
Jagged Edge - Promise
Jagged Edge ft Nelly - Where the party at
Khia - Don't trust no nigga
Khia - Jealous girls
Khia - My neck My back
Kurrupt - Here to stay
Kurrupt - I call shots
Kurrupt - its over
Kurrupt - we can freak it
k0rn - Here to stay
k0rn - wicked
k0rn - faggot
k0rn - look at me
k0rn - freak on a leash
life house - breathing
life house - only one
Lorena Mckennit - The Mummers Dance
Mario - Just A Friend
Maxwell - Lifetime
Maxwell - This womans work
Metallica - I disappear
Mobb Deep - Burn
Mobb Deep - Hey Luv
Mobb Deep - Hell on earth
Mya - My first night
Mya - movin' on
Nas - Gangsta Tears
Nas - 0ne mic
Nas - If I ruled the world
Nas - Rewind
Nas - suspect
Naughty by Nature ft Aaliyah - A girl like you
Naughty by Nature - OPP
Naughty by Nature - feels good
Naughty by Nature - feel me flow
nelly - #1
nelly - hot in here
nelly - E.I.
nelly - midwest swing
nelly - batterup
new found glory - forget my name
new found glory - hit or miss
new found glory - all about her
new found glory - heavem
Nickleback - Hero
Nickleback - deep
Nickleback - breathe
Nickleback - hard to swallow
Nickle back - Shroom Song
Olivia - Bizounce
Olivia - remember me
Olivia - rolling stone
Plumb - Stranded
Plumb - Damaged
P.O.D - Alive
P.O.D - Southtown
P.O.D - Boom
P.O.D - Celestial
Redman - Ill Be dat
Redman - Diggy Doc
Redman ft Eminem - off the wall
Redman - Lets get dirty
Rob Zombie - Draguala
Rob Zombie - Never going stop me
Silk - Freak me baby
Silk - We're callin' you
Soluna - for all the time
Sole - Never Had
Sole ft Ginuwine - It wasn't me
Soul Decision - Faded
System of A down - Aerials
System of A down - ATWA
System of A down - chop seuy
System of A down - needles
The Apex Theory - Apossibly
The Apex Theory - My Reason
Tommy Lee - Hold me down
Tommy Lee - Why is it
Tommy Lee - after glow
Tommy Lee - Face to Face
Tommy Lee - Mr. Shitty
Tommy Lee - Ashamed
Tool - Sober
Tool - The Grudge
Tool - Stinkfist
Tool - hush
Tool - schism
Tool - Parabola
Toya - I do
Toya - No matta what
Trina - I don't need you
Trina - pull over
Trina ft Twista - watch ya back
Trina ft petey pablo - Told Ya'll
Twista - overdose
Twista ft 36mafia - smoked out
Twista - Get It Wet
Twista - Who Am I
Twista ft Do 0r Die - Paper Chase
Ying Yang Twins - Whistle while you Twerk
Ying Yang Twins - Say i yi yi
Ying Yang Twins - Whoa Lil' mama
youngbloodz - 85
youngbloodz - Shake 'em off
youngbloodz - pop,pop,pop
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Subject:dedicated to : J
Time:3:29 am.
Mood: cheerful.
' I love you '
I never thought the day would come,
that you an' I once would be 0ne,
as I sit here and think sightly
you are the one.
I think of you everynight an' day
pray to god that you'll stay
and never stray away.
The clear blue sky is so high
I wish I could reach an' peach
I wish I could hold and never let go
your my sky thats up so high
The distances you an' I
is so high that one day we might be able to fly
so high up in the great blue sky.
I love you now an' forever
whisper my name when you need me the most
think of me when you need me
i'll be there holdin you tightly
kissin your lip, rubbin' your hand
look up in the sky and you'll see
the true fairie that brought you an' I.
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Saturday, June 22nd, 2002

Subject:' ready for love '
Time:9:33 pm.
Mood: anxious.
I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I’d quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I’ve been thinking
Maybe you’re not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I’ll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won’t complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I‘ll prove this to you
I will be patience, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect’s the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you’ll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with a offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready…
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Subject:fairies are special
Time:9:07 pm.


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Tuesday, June 18th, 2002

Subject:Finally....
Time:6:05 am.
Mood: thankful.
Its been like 4yrs since J an' I have been close friends, And we've both always had this thang for one another but never had the chance to express our feelins' toward one another and when we did it never really gotten anywhere.
J is my best friend and the most wonderful thing ever!! He makes me laugh and smile, im not nervous around him nor shy like when im around most guys ahaha I can actually say and do what I want to around him without feelin stupid as in like ( make funnay faces ) hehe!! I dont care either. My birthday was the 15th and what made it even better J wished me happy birthday `,=c] and he made one wish come true and that was him and I being a real couple, I brought the subject up though ha' but we got everything out that we totally needed to which we barely ever got the chance to and look everything is perfect Im happy he is happy an' were happy! Feels like we've always been a couple just never noticed ... I love you J with all of my heart I know you an' I only been together for like 2days so far but I do love you because you've been there for me through my ups an' downs thick an' thin not once did I have a frown while u were around !! I love you for being my friend and now my love. Thank you for everything I hope we can last and our relationship will be a blast hehe, now that I GOT A WEBCAM hehe we can have video SEX HEHE !!!
Im like gettin' so into this and look what the cat brought
pronoeyes: you look sweet when you concentrate
heheh awwwwwwwww an' looky
pronoeyes: i loveeee youuuuuuuu
Im madly deep in the hole! J I love you too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ur my number 1 an' always! kiss sugar muffin hehe!
im a dork but thats ok..... ok well thats all I have to say in this damn little thang so peaCe
J an' Shana
J' an' SHANA
AMY I LOVE YOU TOO!
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Sunday, April 21st, 2002

Subject:sleepy
Time:10:13 pm.
Mood: sleepy.
bored
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Subject:bah ha ha
Time:4:41 pm.
Mood: blah.



Red: 7/100 Blue: 10/100 White: 9/100 Yellow: 19/100
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Take the Color Code Test
by Dano
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Saturday, April 20th, 2002

Time:12:28 pm.




Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You?
quiz, by Angel.
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Friday, April 19th, 2002

Subject:princess shana . . .
Time:11:44 pm.
Mood: amused.


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Tuesday, April 16th, 2002

Subject:Pootie Tangin'
Time:10:08 pm.
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright

A Pootie is a shot calling player
Who's stacking nothing but papers
He gets his mack on with flavor
(Always parlaying)
When he goes out kicking and clubbing
Or in his whip he be bobbing
He knows the ladies they love him
(He's pootie tangin')
And he got this look in his eyes
Like I'm his number one prize
Again a silly me
Takes composure
So if you're doing your thing
And if you like Pootie Tang
Let me hang spend some time to get to know you

If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright

Boy you know your one in a million
You speaking what you be feeling
And now you got me I'm willing
(Let's do whatever)
Wanna breath the air that you're breathing
And show and tell you the reasons
I think I'm what you be needing
(I'll do whatever)
Come on baby lets take a ride
Just wanna be by your side
'Cause I've been feeling like it's my duty
To let you share my world
Just wanna be your girl
'Cause I like the way you're tangin' Pootie

If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright

[Bridge:]
If you pimping party pumping
You's a Pootie player
On the tang tip turn hands and let him
Take you
Pootie be packing pleasing
Ladies we playing paper
Let me see it do your
Thing thing
If you pimping party pumping
You's a Pootie player
On the tang tip turn hands and let him
Take you
Pootie be packing pleasing
Ladies we playing paper
Let me see it do your
Thing Pootie Tang

If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
If you think you pootie tangin'
And you know that you're parlaying
On the dance floor shake your thing its
Alright alright
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